Live NOW

It’s so easy to live for the weekend, for a vacation, for a birthday dinner.

The challenge we all face is not letting life pass us by whilst waiting for an event.

Take a minute to breathe. Feel the air pass through your nose, into your lungs. Feel your chest and abdomen expand. As you exhale, feel your chest and abdomen contract. Feel the warm air flow out of your mouth.

Have you ever marveled at the fact that you’ve been doing that since you were born?

Put your hand on the left side of your chest. Can you feel your heartbeat? Appreciate it.

Something I’m learning…and struggling with on a daily basis…is to appreciate the things that occur daily; the people with whom I interact; little tasks that are as annoying as fuck…but necessary like washing dishes and cleaning he bathroom.

I truly believe that once you really appreciate where you are, right now, that God is able to unfold for you the things He planned before the dawn of time.

Why would He entrust you with great things when you don’t marvel at the fact that you breathe? That your heart beats? That the sun rises and sets?

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The Power of YOU

Yesterday started off so well. My morning was super productive. I felt like a million bucks.

Then…I don’t know what happened.

My energy drained from me, like I unplugged the stopper in a bathtub.

I had been celebrating a victory…a small battle won that felt like a hard fought victory for the good guys.

But I was short-sighted. I lived in the land of when…then.

The truth is that when one fights a battle, it is only to strengthen you for a bigger battle.

I was so happy I got blind-sided.

It’s a good thing I have me. I took myself to the bathroom, and I told myself, “Deneen, no one has the ability to take your power or your energy. You gave it away…now take it back.”

I’m looking YOU in the eye right now. No one has the power to take your energy or your power. If you think you lost it, your deluded. You gave it away. You’re not a victim. Stop telling yourself those shitty lies.

You are a champion. You have all of the power of the universe at your fingertips.

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Intuition

When I was a kid, my family and I were on vacation in the Poconos, and for an entire day, I was so sad I cried all day. Nothing could cheer me up.

When we got home, we found out that one of our relatives in Germany, who I had never met, had passed away. (Remember life before cell phones?)

I’m sure you’ve heard all of the stories about people who decided to work from home, or who called out of work on 09-11.

What do all of these things have in common?

Intuition.

Once upon a time, I trusted my intuition.

Then, I started making decisions based on pleasing people.

A boyfriend.

A pastor.

People I thought were my friends.

Out of fear.

Out of self-doubt.

One day I woke up. I had a job and a life I hated. I was hopeless and hapless.

The dreams of my childhood were cast aside like dirty laundry in a teenager’s bedroom.

Something inside of me kept telling me that there was more to life than punching a time clock, hoping that my life world change…but I was so covered in the muck and mire of people’s expectations that I was paralyzed, an automaton mindlessly traversing life.

What did you dream your life would look like? Do you see a glimmer of it? Do you WANT to realize those dreams?

In a could weeks, I’m going to unveil something that will help you do just that.

Overcome fear and self-doubt.

Put that *thing* into action.

Trust your intuition once again. Or start trusting it if you have never tried.

Make sure you subscribe if you can relate to any of what I said…you have something inside of you, waiting to be uncovered and nurtured.

Seriously…why haven’t you hit subscribe yet?

Drop me a comment if you can relate!

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God’s interested in the small things

Sunday, I had an experience that reminded me of who I am.

While I was looking at pictures, remembering a great day, I saw a picture of me wearing earrings that I used to wear on the daily. I had a passing thought of how I missed wearing them which left my head as quickly as it entered.

A short while later, I was getting ready to go to my parents’ house for Easter, and I remembered those earrings, as well as a necklace that I used to wear constantly.

I asked, almost flippantly, “God, I’d really like to find those earrings and necklace.”

My jewelry situation is a mess. I have everything smashed into two boxes, no organization, everything twisted together.

The next thing I knew, I found one earring. Then the other one. For about a year, I thought I had lost one of the earrings. Bam…after a simple request, I had my pair of earrings.

Then I saw a glint of gold. I found the necklace I was thinking about in a twisted mess of necklaces.

Honestly, I didn’t have the patience to untwist the mess of necklaces, so I simply said, “God, help me get this out.” It took less than a minute.

Then this morning, I was reading in Exodus the details of the tabernacle. Have you ever actually READ it? God told Moses exactly how many rings he needed to hang the curtains. He laid out the exact embroidery pattern he wanted on the priests’ garments.

Yet, we question whether or not God is interested in our lives?

How dare we be so obtuse!

The truth is that God is interested in the smallest details of our lives. If his eye is on the sparrow, if he cares about the lilies of the field, why wouldn’t he care about the beings that He created in HIS IMAGE?

For a long time, I’ve been hiding, denying who I really am. The past few days, I feel like the veil has been torn off me, the scales have been ripped from my eyes, and I am remembering how only WHO I FUCKING AM but also WHAT THE FUCK I’M TRULY CAPABLE OF.

God didn’t put me on Earth to be a meek and mild girl, cowering in a corner, censoring my words to make others happy. He put me on earth to lead a revolution of politically incorrect people who will change the world, one person at a time.

There is a tribe of people who have been waiting for me to wake the fuck up from the slumber, to reclaim who I am, and start leading them.

Well, ladies and gentlemen, here I am. I know that you are lurking, watching, quivering, knowing that your turn is next. You are scared. You feel unworthy. You are uncertain that you can actually do it.

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My inner badass escaped!

When I started my job, my intention was to keep up with the flow of blogging that I had going before I started. Well…obviously that didn’t happen.

I’m not going to give you a bullshit excuse about why I didn’t do what I intended.

I dropped the ball.

I got overly focused on the job.

I fell right back into my comfortable patterns.

Well…that sucked. It sucked so badly that I had a nightmare about it.

In it, I was so mean that I was physically ugly. It was awful. I was unnecessarily horrid to everyone. Imagine Miranda from The Devil Wears Prada. Only worse.

When I woke up, I realize how mean I’ve been to my self…to my inner badass who has a purpose. I locked her up in a closet again.

This time, she fought back.

You see…I took this job to pay bills. I took this job because I kick ass at dental shit.

I didn’t take this job to lock my true self up in a closet for the next 5 years though.

That would be a deal breaker.

Friday night I had a hot date with a hot guy who pulled out a pen and paper and made me unlock my inner badass. Over shrimp fajitas and a Hurricane.

I was put on this earth with a message that only I can deliver. I have a tribe of people who need to hear that message urgently, just like I needed to hear the message of a few people I consider my mentors.

The door has been unlocked. The message is being formulated now.

Do you want to be a part of my tribe? Do you have shit locked away that you hear knocking on the doors of your heart?

Drop me a line. Subscribe to my blog. Soon I’ll be unveiling a program that will get you started on the adventure of a lifetime.

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Grooving

Well…last week was a whirlwind, to say the least. If you’d talked to me on Monday, I would’ve told you a completely different version of my life than what actually transpired. I didn’t have time to process what occurred, and that literally blew my Type A Virgo mind to smithereens by Friday.

I slept it off on Saturday…processed, napped, watched basketball and mindless television.

Now…I’m ready to take on the challenge.

First of all…I’m making a loose schedule for myself. Sundays are for planning, meal prep and vision casting for the week. I have a vision for my personal life that is of the utmost importance. I also need to set up a plan of attack for my new professional role.

I need to get back on the workout wagon. I just feel better when I move my body. I need to meditate and pray to organize my mind. I need to read the word of God because that’s literally food for my spirit.

Starting today…it’s a 5 AM wake up.

  • Meditate 10-20 minutes.
  • Ready my daily reading for my Bible plan. Workout.
  • Make bullet proof coffee.
  • Shower. Get ready.
  • Walk or bus to work.
  • Head home around 6. Eat dinner.
  • Prep social media for the following day.
  • Decompress.
  • Pass out by 8-9 PM.
  • Rinse and repeat.

I work best with structure…so that’s the plan.

Thanks for bearing with me through his transition…it is a whirlwind…but I’m really excited to see how God works all of these things together. He has the master plan…my job is to tap into what He’s doing and flow with Him.

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Suddenly?

Well…I am officially employed.

It happened quickly. On a whim, I sent my resume. Less than 30 minutes later, I had an interview. About 24 hours later, I had an offer.

I wasn’t expecting any of this. That’s probably why God opened the door.

When you’ve had as much rejection as I have in the past few months…the long interview processes ending in, “Thank you, but we’ve gone with another candidate” or worse…dead silence…you set your expectations really low.

I am really excited about this opportunity. I am going to be able to use my strengths in a way I haven’t been able to in a long time. The doctors are both great. The office is beautiful.

Tonight, as I was praying, thanking God for this opportunity, I was brought to tears. God knows our every need. God knows the end from the beginning.

I lost trust in Him. Hence the tears. He proved Himself faithful. He worked in the last 24 hours the way He used to work in my life. I truly know that the best is yet to come.

Please pray for me. This is going to be a transition for me. And for the office. I need God’s favor and grace while I get myself into a schedule.

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Long term vision

A mistake that I’ve made in the past is focusing so acutely on the short term that I lose sight of the long term. Some may say that I cut my nose off to spite my face.

I recently read the story of Jacob, where he is wrestling with God. He wrestled with God for an entire night before God pops his hip out of its socket and wins. Jacob knew what he wanted…a blessing. He wasn’t giving up until he got what he wanted.

I feel like I’ve been wrestling with God for nine months. I’ve had my vision of the way things would work out…but God, in the end, has another idea.

I have come to see my life more as an experiment than anything. What does that mean? That means I’m willing to recalculate my route. The end destination hasn’t changed, at all. My vision is very clear. The path to get there is just different than I thought it was in July.

I borderline stalk content from Gary Vaynerchuk. On the daily, I learn that being 42, I’m still young. I have a good 50 years left to live. He also talks about eating shit…doing whatever you have to do to get where you want to go.

So…the next phase of my life is going to be doing something I’m great at during the day while making my vision a reality during the evening or the early morning.

Please…keep me in prayer during this season. I’m super excited about all of the possibilities that are on the horizon.

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Self-love Saturday

Today I want to celebrate a few of my favorite things! Self love comes in many forms. Here are a few things that I’ve discovered that make life better.

Massage

A few weeks ago, I had the massage of my life. What made it so good? First of all, my friend Jules Million was the massage therapist. If you are a regular massage person, and live in Philadelphia, I can’t recommend her highly enough.

Before we started, she had a conversation with me. Asked me what my goal was for the massage. (Did you know that you can have a goal for a massage? I didn’t!) After she got a feel for what we wanted to accomplish, I had the massage. Can you say amazing?

After the massage, we did a consultation of things that she found…like my hamstrings are really tight and that my right side is higher than my left. She recommended ways to work on those things before our next session.

I’ve had a few massages in my life. Normally, the intake form is largely ignored, then after the session I’m given a glass of water and basically told good luck with that right side…cause it’s a bag of rocks 😳

So…if you want a great massage, I only have one person to whom I’d send you!

Essential oils

I have a hard time falling asleep. Without fail, it takes me at least an hour to settle my mind and body.

Enter Dream Time by Rocky Mountain Oils. I smell this oil and I get sleepy. I rub it on my neck and behind my ears, I’m asleep within 10-15 minutes.

I’ve been dabbling with oils for a few months. I’ve tried oils from Whole Foods. I’ve tried the popular brands that friends sell. What makes these oils different is the thorough testing that they go through. And free shipping. That’s pretty awesome too.

If you’re an insomniac like me…try Dream Time. I promise you’ll love it. For the record…I get nothing if you try it out. This company is a direct to consumer company.

What oils do you use? I’m always open for suggestions!

Bulletproof Coffee

Ok…I’ve been trying to figure out what way of eating works for me. I’ve tried vegan. I like meat too much for that to be sustainable. I’ve tried counting container and calories. I’m not disciplined enough for that…and frankly, I’m so fixated on food that I’m. Always. Hungry. That’s counterproductive to weight loss 😜

Enter intermittent fasting. Basically…you eat for 8 hours and fast for 16 hours. You eat when you’re hungry during that 8 hour window and then don’t eat for the other 16 hours.

I’m also trying out the keto lifestyle…hence the bulletproof coffee. The super cliff notes version is you eat a lot of low carb veggies, some meat, and a hefty portion of fat. Bulletproof coffee is my savior in the morning. I mix coffee, 2 tablespoons of coconut oil, 2 tablespoons of Kerrygold butter, coffee and a raw egg (yes, you read that right) in my Nutribullet and bam…a delicious drink that keeps me full for hours.

I see all ways of eating as an experiment to see what works. I love veggies. I’m not a huge carb (read rice, bread, potato) person. I’m also not a huge meat person…I enjoy a good steak on occasion…but I can’t eat huge amounts of it. So…this is an experiment that is working…especially since I discovered a low carb pizza!

So…those are a few of my favorite things. What is something that you love…that you can’t live without…that is an act of self love! Let me know!

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Stalled out

A long time ago, I had a car that I lovingly called the blue bomb. Friends gave her to me. It was a beater Subaru…banged up door, years past its prime. I was thankful for the blue bomb.

junker

There was one catch with it at the beginning. It had a standard transmission. I was an automatic girl. The first time I took her on a longish ride, I went to Cherry Hill to my church’s office. I got out of my neighborhood in Woodbury, onto 295 and all the way to the intersection of Springdale Road and Church Road.

Then…my deepest fear transpired. I couldn’t shift from first into second to get through the intersection. It took me three lights aka 1 million years to make the left I needed to make. When my car stalled, I was less than half a mile from my destination.

Every single time I go through that intersection, to this day, I remember that moment.

Why do I relate this story to you?

We all go through these moments. It may not include cars honking at you as they’re just trying to get home…but it may be with weight loss? Fitness? Bible in a year plan? Prayers life? Meditation practice? Writing? You get the picture.

I’ve started and stopped more fitness programs and diets than you can even name. I get to a certain point, where I truly believe that I’m going to be successful…I’m almost to my goal. Then I stall.

Last week I was on a roll with fitness. My friend Meggan made me a weight lifting program and a five minute HIIT program. I was lifting weights, taking videos to check my form. I was on top of the world.

Then…I stalled. I was sore. I was hungry. I was sitting in the middle of the intersection between progress and quitting and I chose the latter.

intersection

Reality has set in about a few of my dreams/goals that have nothing to do with fitness. I was set on making a decision…then I couldn’t. I read an article that brought up all kinds of emotions that I *thought* I had dealt with…but hadn’t. Grief gripped my heart hard. It snowed and I ate all the food. All the emotions. All the things.

My brain is hard-wired to fixate on the bad things instead of the good things. I mean…I sat court side to see the Harlem Globetrotters with the guy I dig the most in the world. We had an amazing night full of laughter and smiles that will forever be cherished. Why not fixate on the good things? Because my brain is a work in progress.

Do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewal of your mind, that by testing you may discern what is the will of God, what is good and acceptable and perfect. Romans 12:2

Today, take a look at your life. Where are you stalled, or stalling? Take responsibility for stalling. It’s not the weather’s fault. It’s not your husband’s fault. It’s not your boss’s fault. It’s your fault. The sooner you look at yourself, with love, and see what is going on, the sooner you can stop the cars honking behind you and make the turn that you need to make.

personal responsibility

 

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