I guess you can say I’m a fixer. Whenever something happens that causes others stress or grief, I immediately got into militant mode. I take over. I go into action. What I realized today is that my coping mechanism for grief can come off as lacking compassion; as too intense. That broke my heart. WhichContinue reading “Tough Experiences Yield the Most Fruitful Lessons”
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Be true to who you are
In this moment, I’m sitting here in my workout clothes, too late to workout this morning…so I have to workout this evening. I’m mildly annoyed with myself, but if I’m fully honest, I set myself up for this. You see…I have been going through the motions as of late. I haven’t been fully showing upContinue reading “Be true to who you are”
Breaking the fear of success
Back in January/February, I had the opportunity to spend a long weekend in NYC. It was awesome. But…when I found out the address of the hotel, I felt so unworthy. As I was walking there, I passed over all of the fancy streets that you hear about in every movie about high-end NY. Park Avenue.Continue reading “Breaking the fear of success”
Triggers
Growing up, I always identified as smart. Ok…if I’m honest, that’s what I still identify with. Why? Well, it started with the voices that I allowed to shape my identity. For me, fun always equated with stupid (yes, super judgmental, I know) so I always prefer to be intense over fun. Something else that I’veContinue reading “Triggers”
Writing is my release. It is the way that I work through what’s raging in my head, in my life in a way that is productive instead of falling prey to self-destruction. It is something I do for ME. It is the way that I get my story out to the world in an understandableContinue reading
A lesson about sharks
There are people in the world who are truly zealous for your success. They will feed into your life in a way that is meaningful, as you do into theirs. Then there are people who act like they want you to be successful because they have something to gain…an ego boost for themselves. Both peopleContinue reading “A lesson about sharks”
Life is funny. Ok…maybe more like a psychotic roller coaster. One day, years ago, a friend convinced me that I should overcome my fear of roller coasters, and proceeded to convince me to get on Nitro at Six Flags. Y’all…I’m still emotionally scarred. The ascent was really cool…a good 30 seconds of my life. TheContinue reading
Being a Christian in the US today is rough.
Don’t get me wrong. It’s not as rough as it is in Muslim countries. I can declare my faith openly here without fear of being killed, tortured, losing property or being imprisoned. Being a Christian doesn’t mean that I’ll lose my job. Before you throw stones at me or crucify me, hear me out. InContinue reading “Being a Christian in the US today is rough.”
Five years already?
Today is five years since we lost my grandmother. I’ve been so emotional…just raw. Elsie and I had an enigmatic relationship. She wasn’t ready to be a grandmother. She had a daughter who was nearly five when I was born. I didn’t know these things. I just failed to understand why she held me atContinue reading “Five years already?”
What the fluff?!?!
This morning, I may have freaked out a little bit. I am leaving my job 😳 Yea, I made a rational decision based on evidence that it is time for me to leave. Yes, I know that I know that it’s the right decision for me, and this is the time that it needs toContinue reading “What the fluff?!?!”