If We Don’t Talk About It

We can’t eradicate it. Today, I had the opportunity of a lifetime. Back before it was a popular buzzword, I was learning about human trafficking. What shocks me, truthfully, is that more people are not aware of what is going on in plain sight. It was an intimate group of powerhouses. People who are inContinue reading “If We Don’t Talk About It”

Faith and trust

There are seasons in which it’s easy to share, and then there are seasons wherein I go into turtle mode. Today, I know I need to share. As a matter of fact, I know I need to share more. Even though it seems like I wear my heart on my sleeve, I really don’t. Shocking,Continue reading “Faith and trust”

I can’t run from myself…

There’s nowhere to hide. For years, I was convinced that if I kept it moving, eventually things would be different. Better. As if miraculously, all of the baggage I was carrying around would be lost by the airline, and I’d be…happy. When I realized my baggage was attached to me, I tried to numb theContinue reading “I can’t run from myself…”

Strength, insecurity, dignity, grace, fear, faith…all the bloody things

There’s something in the air the week. It feels like a week of rapid transformation. Or deterioration. Or both. If I were to lay it all out, you wouldn’t believe the shit I’ve been facing. And it’s only Thursday. In general, I feel that I am a pretty selfless person. But man…this week…it’s been allContinue reading “Strength, insecurity, dignity, grace, fear, faith…all the bloody things”

Triggered into the future

Years ago, there was a man with whom I was very much in love. We were best friends. We were basically inseparable. There was one huge, glaring problem between us. My faith. We had hours and hours of discussions, debates, tirades for and against God. Finally, one day, he asked me a question. “Deneen, ifContinue reading “Triggered into the future”

Coming alive

There is a dream that has been inside of you for your whole life. It’s lingering just below your consciousness…every once in a while it bubbles to the surface, but you bury it out of fear. Then…you pull it up to see it, and laugh at it, writing it off as a childish dream, nothingContinue reading “Coming alive”

Thunderbolts and fire

Years ago, there was a woman who spoke something over me. In the ensuing 20 years, I’ve thought of that word sporadically…but it never seemed…possible. I held lightly onto what she said…but if I told you that it brought me comfort, I’d be lying. I used a beautiful word spoken over me as a barteringContinue reading “Thunderbolts and fire”

Intuition

When I was a kid, my family and I were on vacation in the Poconos, and for an entire day, I was so sad I cried all day. Nothing could cheer me up. When we got home, we found out that one of our relatives in Germany, who I had never met, had passed away.Continue reading “Intuition”

Stalled out

A long time ago, I had a car that I lovingly called the blue bomb. Friends gave her to me. It was a beater Subaru…banged up door, years past its prime. I was thankful for the blue bomb. There was one catch with it at the beginning. It had a standard transmission. I was anContinue reading “Stalled out”

Surrender

Yesterday was one of the most difficult days that I’ve had mentally in a long time. I woke up and I was just depleted of all of my energy. I felt empty and cracked and hopeless. I was standing in quicksand and sinking quickly. Fortunately, God had other plans for me.   He drew meContinue reading “Surrender”