I left my job in the dental field almost six months ago. I was sick mentally and physically. I was so far beyond burnt out that I was unrecognizable to myself.
Over 10 years ago, I left a church. I was mentally and physically sick. I was so far beyond burnt out from volunteering a lot of hours a week, working and going to school that I just collapsed.
See a trend?
Balance is not something that comes easily to me. When I’m in, I’m ALL IN.
This week, I’ve been in the process of interviewing for jobs. Yes, I’m still working on building a business…but the bills have to get paid. So…I’m diving back into dentistry.
I’m afraid. I almost feel like a failure. Failure is necessary for success.
I’m not afraid of the work. I’m good at what I do. I’m good at dealing with patients and doctors. I am really good at helping patients overcome fears.
What I’m not good at…is balance. I allow myself, I work myself to burnout.
So, when I get one of the jobs for which I interviewed, I will hold myself accountable. I have to create a very clear boundary. Dental/work is for the office. I pick up the mantle when I enter the door, and I hang it in the office closet when I leave.
Over the past six months, I’ve learned a lot about myself. I have to take those lessons into the next season. I won’t make those mistakes again.
-I will still maintain high expectations of myself wherever I work
BUT:
-I will not work myself to death.
-I will keep working toward my goal of having a successful coaching business.
-I will take care of myself through exercise, healthy food choices, meditation.
-I will have a social life, because fun is necessary.
-I will travel and enjoy my life
Rock bottom is a scary place…but it is a good foundation for the future, as long as you have learned the lessons that got you there in the first place.
Deneen White 
Might I suggest one more “I will”?
I will become a part of a good Bible-teaching church.
I’m not there yet…the thought gives me a panic attack n
Does attending a Bible believing church online count?
I think that would be a step in the right direction.
I’ll try (and fail) not to be preachy. I’m guessing that you got burned, badly, by a previous church experience. Just remember that it was people who let you down, not God Almighty. I hope you won’t allow that bad experience(s) to keep you away from contact with other Believers. We NEED Godly people in our lives – people who can walk with us in difficult times and vice versa. God named us the Body of Christ, not the individuals of Christ.
I’ll be praying that you will find the perfect place.
Yes, I allowed myself to be burnt really badly. I know that was the person, not God…but I’ve had a similar experience more than once. The good thing is I’m not that naive woman who didn’t like herself very much…the bad news is I literally recoil at the thought of church. Baby steps.
Baby steps indeed. Reminds me of the movie “What About Bob”. If you haven’t seen it, do so. Hilarious!
It’s one of my favorites!!