Reaping what you’ve sown

I am generally a person who gives to give.  I don’t expect repayment…I genuinely love to give.  When people are down and out, I try to give them comfort, laughter, a shoulder on which to cry.  When people are in need, and I have, I give.  I would give just about anyone the shirt off of my back.

My parents modeled this to me my whole life.  When my father got laid off after 21 years, about 10 years ago, my mom was involved in a homeless ministry.  I remember it was a really cold day, and my parents, despite having their income cut deeply, made chili for the ministry.  This chili was hearty…chock full of meat, beans and flavor.  We’ve always taken in stray people–for weeks at a time, for holidays, for random nights just to eat dinner.

I’ve helped people move into new homes; I’ve helped to build churches; I’ve helped to build businesses.  I honestly never expected anything in return.  It’s not that I don’t think that God is God, and that His word is true.  I just never thought that anyone would remember what I’ve done.

In the past two weeks, God has shown me the principles of sowing and reaping.  People I never would have expected are rallying around me and my family, loving us, holding our arms up when we’re too weak.  I’m learning FAITH in a way that you cannot learn when the waters are still and you have no tribulation.  I’ve not known tribulation like I have in the past few weeks.  Health concerns for my mom.  Financial concerns.  Relational concerns.  The waves are beating against the stern of the ship that I call my life…hard.  Yet, in the midst of the storm, I find myself…at peace.  Shalom.

I’d not wish cancer on my worst enemy.  But, I thank God for cancer tonight.  During the midst of the storm, God is proving Himself to be God.  Not the god that I’ve created, but the King of kings and Lord of lords.

Lord, You know what You’ve done.  Thank you.

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4 Responses to Reaping what you’ve sown

  1. Awesome! Jesus promised us that He WILL be with us, even through the valleys. Psalm 23. He doesn’t say we won’t go through valleys as Christians, He says He will be right there with us. There is no better comfort than His Presence.

    I am sincerely sorry for your tribulation. But in some small way, right across the world, I stand with you. Brothers in arms. Knowing all will be revealed one day.

    Grace and Peace be with you, Deneen. Especially in this hour when you need it most.

    • deneenwhite says:

      Thank you James. I appreciate it! God is doing some amazing things…blowing me away on a daily basis. I am thankful for the storm because without the storm I wouldn’t be able to learn the true depths of His love…counterintuitive, but true.

  2. Thanks for sharing your blog with me. Obviously you are on a journey that is not easy. Wow. I had a “scare” of cancer. Cannot imagine, really, even with that.

    Sowing and reaping really is an amazing principle. I am finishing Andy Stanley’s “Principle of the Path” which is challenging me. What you shared is timely for me to read tonight.

    I appreciate your story here. Blessings to you!!

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