Category Archives: emotions

Surrender

Yesterday was one of the most difficult days that I’ve had mentally in a long time. I woke up and I was just depleted of all of my energy. I felt empty and cracked and hopeless. I was standing in quicksand and sinking quickly. Fortunately, God had other plans for me.   He drew meContinue reading “Surrender”

Sadness and fear

When I encounter sadness or fear, I’m usually very mean to them. I see them as the enemy and try to squash them. Today, I’m trying something different. I’m having coffee with them, telling them how much I appreciate their roles in my life, and discussing with them how we can work together. *Did DeneenContinue reading “Sadness and fear”

Walking through it

Let me set the scene for you. This weekend I headed to NYC on the Megabus for an unscripted weekend. I didn’t know how long I was staying, or what I was doing, so I packed for two nights. I get a text message from the fella telling me where to meet him. I googledContinue reading “Walking through it”

Self love and acceptance

You’re so fat. You’re ugly. Oh my goodness–look at you hair! You’re too stupid to learn that.  You can never achieve that goal. You are a failure. You shouldn’t even try. Would you say those things to your best friend? To your child? To your lover? No? Then why do you do that to yourself?Continue reading “Self love and acceptance”

New-found Joy

When I was a kid, my father always told me, “Girl, whatever makes you happy, makes me happy.” I never understood that fully…I thought it was a dad thing to say, nice and all…but I never truly got it. I spent a lot of my life so deeply unhappy with me, that I couldn’t trulyContinue reading “New-found Joy”

Temporal vs eternal

I’m realizing just how much of my focus has been on the temporal versus the eternal. I’ve been in survival mode. I’m trying to keep afloat physically. My health hasn’t been great and the exhaustion has been overwhelming. I’m trying to keep at least my nose above water financially. Those two situations have taken aContinue reading “Temporal vs eternal”

Uncle!!!

Last night my friend called my current season of life a pressing season. I don’t know what season I’m in but I’m calling uncle. This past weekend was one of the most emotionally difficult I’ve had…and that includes being in the house when my Grandmom passed. Cleaning out her house. Dealing with long unresolved emotionsContinue reading “Uncle!!!”