Today I thought I was going to be doing a lot of writing. I was wrong. I was doing a lot of reading. A LOT of reading.
It’s confession time. It’s been a while since I’ve taken the time to read my Bible purposefully. It’s been too painful reading promises that seem so far off. I was fine when I was reading Job or other random books of the Bible, but when it came to reading those scriptures that are my bedrock–the scriptures that God used to let me know who I am in Him, to show me the call He’s placed on my life…I just could NOT do it. I felt like either I was living a lie or that I believed a lie a long time ago.
Well, that time is over. It is time to recharge the batteries, to own the call that God has placed on my life, and to start believing again. Believing that I am not insane but that I do hear the voice of God. Believing that right now I am learning a tent making trade, not living in the fullness that God has for me. Believing that, though I’ve made a multitude of mistakes/bad decisions, that God knows the beginning from the end and is NOT surprised by where I am sitting right now.
Jeremiah 1:5 “Before I formed you in the womb I knew you, before you were born I set you apart; I appointed you as a prophet to the nations.”
Hosea 2:16, 19-20 16 “In that day,” declares the LORD, “you will call me ‘my husband’; you will no longer call me ‘my master.’ 19 I will betroth you to me forever; I will betroth you in righteousness and justice, in love and compassion. 20 I will betroth you in faithfulness, and you will acknowledge the LORD.
Isaiah 49:1b-2 “Before I was born the LORD called me; from my birth he has made mention of my name. 2 He made my mouth like a sharpened sword, in the shadow of his hand he hid me; he made me into a polished arrow and concealed me in his quiver.
And–one of my friends posted on facebook Habukkuk 2:2-4 tonight.
That’s just a little taste of what I’ve been reading. Yeah…I’m more than a little overwhelmed tonight. God is confirming what I thought was just a passing idea…something that I wanted to happen but that would never happen…is what He wants. I am freaking out in the best way…and enjoying the ride.