So far, 2010 has been a doozey. I entered this year with such a sense of anticipation of good things to come. Here it is, 1/4 of the year has passed, and now I’m just buckling up my chinstrap and hoping that nothing else happens this year.
Either God really trusts me and loves me, or He hates my guts. Either God has an amazing plan for my life and is allowing me to be brought to my knees or He thinks I’m a complete loser and hates my guts.
The world, the media, wants me to think that God doesn’t exist. They want to mock me for my faith. They want me to be like Job and curse God. The world wants me to think that God doesn’t have my back.
But–the one thing, literally the ONLY thing that keeps me from giving up, from driving my car off of a bridge, is because I know that I KNOW that I KNOW that God is real. I know that He exists. I know that He loves me and that, even with my bad decisions and the ramifications of those decisions, He knows the beginning from the end.
The day between the crucifixion and the resurrection must have been horrible–for Mary, for Mary Magdeline, for the disciples, for Pilate, for the people who came to follow Jesus during his short tenure on earth. Everything that they believed died. Was killed. Crashed right before their eyes. When I think about that day, I get despondent.
However, when the women discovered that the tomb was empty–what jubilation must have filled their hearts.
Right now I am going through a period where I feel like I am between the crucifixion and the resurrection. This period sucks like none other. However, I know that, one day, I will wake up and the tomb will be empty and I will understand why I have gone through this. I know that I will wake up and see victory. Right now, however, I need to stand on this rock, knowing that God is faithful.
Happy Easter. He is RISEN!