It is looking like 2010 is going to be a great year.
I have a sense of anticipation about 2010 that goes all of the way to the depth of my being. I have very high expectations of myself for this year and for the trajectory of my life.
This year is going to be a year of change and stability. I sense that a big change is coming in my life…one that even I cannot anticipate, but I also sense that I am finally going to find stability.
I have some goals for the year…I’m not calling them resolutions because they are not necessarily things that I can objectively measure. I want to be comfortable in my own skin. I want to start writing that book. I want to learn how to be in a healthy relationship. I want to break down the walls of “protection” that have been caging me in. I want to do what makes me happy and fulfills me…not what I think I need to do to stay afloat or keep other people happy with me.
I have to grow deeper in my faith in 2010. I want to study why I believe what I believe. I want to be able to answer the questions that are posed to me that seem unanswerable. A trend that I see is that there are consistently people in my life who challenge what I believe. I need to step up to the plate.
There is something that is brewing below the surface, too. A seed that was planted many years ago has started to emerge again…it is kind of freaking me out; I know that it’s not the time right now; but I know that it’s something that needs to be worked on. I’m not making the mistake I’ve made in the past about talking too much about it…I’m letting God be God.
I’m taking 2010 by the horns and going for it.
Deneen White 