Period of stretching

I’m being stretched right now.  Stretched thin.  Financially.  Emotionally.  Relationally.

I know that these periods are learning times and growth times.  These are the times that I will one day look back upon and smile.  Right now, it’s taking a lot to smile.

I never thought that moving out would be easy.  I love being on my own.  But it takes a lot to keep the whole thing afloat 😉  Cleaning.  Laundry.  Cooking.  Do it all over again.

Relationships require a lot of work.  Make sure that you keep yourself smiling and positive, but be honest and let the other person know what’s going on in your head.  I’m finding that there’s a delicate balance between letting the other person know enough and too much.  You have to keep a happy face on even when you’re stressed to the max.  You have to leave work at work and home at home.  That’s tricky when work and home or home and work converge.

I’m finding that I’m really sensitive toward anything that involved cancer.  I’ve been for along time…but with mom going through it, it’s amplified.  I never realize how little compassion I had before until now.

With all of these things going on, I’m still feeling really hopeful.  I sense that something good is happening that I cannot yet see.  Isaiah 43:18-19 says, “Forget the former things; do not dwell on the past.  See!  I am doing a new thing. Now it springs up!  Do you not perceive it? I am making a way in the desert and streams in the desert.”  I cannot see the new thing, but I can, in face perceive it.  Does that make sense?

I am sitting here, shaking in my boots.  Or my sneakers as the case may be.  Something is brewing.  I feel like Tony in West Side Story…there’s something due, any day, I will know, right away, soon as it comes….