The reason that I started writing this blog was to have an outlet for my writing. I want to be authentic. So here is an authentic post.
The holidays are tough for me. Every year at this time, I look forward to seeing what will happen in the next twelve months. Every year, I expect that things are going to be exponentially better than they were last year.
2008 started out well. In the first few months, I had the opportunity to travel to San Antonio, TX. I had a great time, and I would love to go back for a vacation. I also went to MD, enjoyed the night life of Annapolis and Baltimore. I definitely want to head back to see those cities as well.
I made some new friends in 2008. I expect to see those friendships grow in 2009.
2008 did not find me in a home church. I did revisit some old stomping grounds, if you will. I’ve come to realize that they are great places to visit, but they are not places that I can hang my hat. I love the people of The River and The Sanctuary, but I just cannot sell out to the church.
The lessons that I’ve learned over the past few years seared that into my heart. What I am working on is selling myself out to God. That means doing what He’s called me to do…comfortable or not, whether it makes me friends or not.
And this is where I begin to squirm. And look for bright shiny objects to distract me. 🙂
During the holidays, it’s tough to be single. In my 30’s, it’s getting more and more difficult. I want to get married and have children. I know that people are having children later in life, but I would really prefer to have kids sooner than later. I don’t want to be retired when my kid graduates from college. I really want someone to ring in 2009 with. I want someone to travel with. I want someone to stay up all night with, talking about whatever comes to mind.
Though 2008 started out well, it’s ended rather poorly. I am looking forward to 2009. New job. New beginnings. So many possibilities that my head is spinning 🙂