Part of my holistic recovery is getting back into church. What does it matter if I’m physically and emotionally healthy if I’m spiritually dying? So, today, I went to church.
Today’s sermon was on…drum roll please…HUMILITY. You see…I’m a slow learner, so God had to really drive the lesson home.
I’m going to be really honest. When I normally walk into church, I put off the vibe that if you talk to me, I may eat you alive. I’m not proud of it…but my porcupine quills are real. Today…something really strange happened. People spoke to me. I let my defenses down a little. It felt good.
I’m learning that I need people in my life. More than that, I need God in my life…to be the center of my life. I can’t afford to be an island any longer, and I can’t afford to hold onto things that were never mine to hold.
Don’t get it twisted. I still have a backpack full of crap. Rome wasn’t built in a day. It’s taken me 41 years to get to this place where my life looks like a war torn country. This week, some of the rubbish has been cleared. The storm is over. It’s time to tear down the broken down edifices and allow a season of rebuilding to occur.
I’m pretty excited to see what is to come. I know that the breaking down is going to be painful…but the reconstruction that God is about to do is breathtaking.
Deneen White 
I’m proud of you – both for going and for letting down your guard. Keep it up!
As I’m finding in my physical wellness program, growth after a long period of idleness is quite painful. Especially in the early days, before there is any noticeable improvement, it can be quite discouraging. Don’t quit when it gets difficult – stay connected. It will be worth it.
I promise I’ll try. Hopefully soon I’ll be back on the workout circuit too!
I hope you are going back to church this weekend! Let me know what God shows you.
That’s the plan!
How did it go? What did you learn?
I didn’t go. I did learn, however, that God has woven many parts of my life into an intricate tapestry.