I haven’t been writing on here for fear of offending people. I’m ending my silence today.
This is MY blog. I am allowed to write whatever I want on here. This is not required reading for a class, for a job, for anything. This is my place to write out what I am going through. This is not for the faint of heart. If I offend you, take me off of your reading list.
The past few months have been the best and worst of my life.
I’m learning much about myself…things I like and things I don’t like.
I don’t like that I don’t stand up for myself. I tend to back pedal when challenged instead of standing my ground. I don’t tell people how I really feel…instead I keep it bottled up until I can’t take it any longer. That is changing. I am worth sticking up for. Why would I defend someone I love to the death but allow myself to be berated? That is insane.
I like being in a relationship. I love that there is a go-to person in my life, and that I am the go-to person in someone else’s life. The roller coaster part has taken some getting used to, but I’m getting my sea legs.
I don’t like that recently when I’ve gotten bad news that I’ve crumpled. When I found out my mom had cancer, I lost it. when she had the allergic reaction to the chemo, I was scared to death. When I found out that my uncle in FL has a short time to live, due to cancer (I HATE CANCER) I wept. I am an emotional person, but I need to find a way to control my emotions better.
I needed to get that stuff off of my chest. I am going to be writing more frequently. I’ve missed my blog.
