I find myself in a new situation. Uncharted territory. I really like my job. Not all the junk that goes along with it…but the job itself, I really like. I like the industry. But it seems that I am at an impasse. We are at an impasse. I can’t agree to their terms and my terms cannot will not be met. Do I take the “promotion” that will cost me money? Is a potential “career advancing opportunity” worth driving 50 miles (one way) per day, sitting in the car for 1 hour and 15 minutes (one way?) In a company that seems to only respect men and people of the same nationality? I can never be a man (I mean, I could, but I don’t want to be a man…I like being a woman) and though I love their culture and food, I’ll never be their nationality. So, I’ve pretty much reached my career potential already.
Usually when I find myself in this situation, I am ready to go. It is on my terms. I make a decision and I follow through, not worrying about the consequences. But now, I have a relationship with the doctors. I like the AA in the office. One may say that I have matured, that I’m all growed up.
But what can I do? I don’t want to be an AA. Ever again. I looked through those posting and felt ill. I wouldn’t mind working for a publisher, but I want to be in Philadelphia. I really like the dental industry, but I am not a dentist. I have made some fantastic contacts and developed some great relationships over the past year.
So, I have some decisions to make. I hope that the friendships that I have developed are true friendships. Otherwise I will truly be back at square one. And I don’t really know where that is.