Dilemma…of sorts…

Lately…ok, most of my life…I’ve found myself with this dilemma.  I am absoluely passionate about Jesus.  I love Him with all of my being.  However, I don’t ever want to be known as the church chick.  I just started going back to church regularly.  I love my church and my pastor.  But I don’t want to be known as the girl who goes to church.

In our area, there are such negative connotations about people who go to church.  Hypocrites.  Irrelevant.  Jugmental.  Weird.  Awkward.  People are afraid to be around church people.  “What will (insert name here) think of me as I am drinking these beers?  What will (…) think of me if she knows that I did (…)?”  I can’t really judge people who are drinking if I am having martinis and beers alongside them.  I can’t judge others’ actions when, albeit a while ago, I was doing the same things.

I want to live my life so that people see Jesus in me.  But I don’t ever want to hit people over the head with religion or with the Bible. 

So….that’s where I am right now. 

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4 Responses to Dilemma…of sorts…

  1. Administrator says:

    what’s so wrong with being known as the girl who goes to church? it doesn’t automatically mean you are also judgemental. who really cares what others think anyway? besides, you never know when someone will want to be around the girl who goes to church for guidance or support. wear your church chick banner with pride!

  2. deneenwhite says:

    Maybe the dilemma is deep within me…the experiences that I’ve had being and being assaulted and being ignored by the church chicks…

  3. Administrator says:

    it’s time to let go and shed that old armour – forgive those that bullied or assaulted or insulted or caused you pain and grief and move forward and be all that God has called you to be.

  4. deneenwhite says:

    I still don’t want to be known as the church girl…it really does scare people off.

    But I definitely take your words seriously.

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