Sleepless in NJ

I am still exhausted from LA, but I find myself unable to sleep for more than two hours in a row.  Last night, I was so frustrated.  So, I had a novel idea.  Why not listen to music that would soothe my aching soul.

I listened to updated versions of hymns.  I listened to worship music.  Something amazing happened.  God brought peace to my weary soul.  And He reminded me of things that He’s promised me over the years…visions that He has given me, desires He placed in me.

At the risk of sounding overly dramatic, I believe that there is a war waging right now for my soul and for my dreams.  I find myself at a frightening place:  I can move forward in a career or I can move toward my dreams, toward the place that calls my name in the deep of the night.  One place is safe, the devil I know.  The other…an adventure, the unknown, certainly not the wide road. 

My greatest desire is to walk forth in faith…toward God’s best for me, not my best for me. 

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4 Responses to Sleepless in NJ

  1. chill pastor says:

    “My greatest desire is to walk forth in faith…toward God’s best for me, not my best for me. ”

    That has a sermon series all over it…Good stuff. Go and read your words, I think you are clear as to what you need to do. Don’t be afraid to make a mistake. God will honor your move towards Him and will catch you if you fall…

    Go For It!

    chill

  2. deneenwhite says:

    I don’t think it’s fair to throw my words back at me 🙂

  3. salt says:

    “Go forth from your country,
    And from your relatives
    And from your father’s house,
    To the land which I will show you;
    And I will make you a great nation,
    And I will bless you,
    And make your name great;
    And so you shall be a blessing;”

    i see His fingerprints all over this =)

  4. deneenwhite says:

    Wow. That certainly puts things into perspective. Thank you. So much.

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