Today I was listening to a TD Jakes teaching. I heard a woman singing in the Spirit in the background. I want desperately to be where God is moving. Tangibly. I want to see people come into a living, vibrant relationship with the Lord Jesus Christ. I want to see the blind see, the lame walk, the deaf hear, the dead raised. I am getting really frustrated. I want to see God move. I want to see His hand. My heart longs for God like the deer pants for water.
I wish I could end this on a melodramatic sigh. I can’t. I don’t take this lightly. I want to be a part of the church of Acts.
I guess it’s no mistake that I’ve changed my major to Church Growth and Evangelism.
Deneen White 
When I saw the title of your post, my “theme song” brain thought about the tune from Steven Curtis Chapman simply titled “Heart’s Cry”…It speakes to some of the same stuff you are sharing…If you haven’t heard it, it is one of his older songs…go and google the lyrics….
I’m not surprised by your change of direction…
chill
Hi Deneen,
I just found your blog online and it’s really interesting.
I work for a magazine that’s doing a story on people about to enter seminary. Do you think you might be interested in talking to us about your thoughts and feelings as you prepare for it? We think it would be really valuable.
I would send you an email, but I couldn’t find it on your site…
Ok thanks!
Avi
Have you read, The Practice of the Presence of God, Brother Lawrence of the Resurrection, Eidted and Paraphased by Donald E. Demaray?
It’s a very slim book but it speaks to living in the presence of God moment after moment.
I don’t know how you feel about crossing over with reading among different religions, but I find you can take something out of most anything, and this one truly talks about how one man learned to always live within the presence of God.
The Practice of the Presence of God by Brother Lawrence is one of my touchstone books. I love it…I love the way he tangibly (if a book is tangible) challenges the reader to a constant awareness of God.
I’ll have to re-read this old favorite!
Thanks for the suggestion, and thanks for commenting. It’s always nice to hear from someone who’s reading 🙂
May God bless you when he calls you to walk upon your knees through this world. We are no better or worse than the next, just suffering through moments of shrinking spirituality when our egos take over, believe me you.
all the best fellow reader…