Hello 21st Century. Glad to meet you!
This weekend I gave into my desire. I bought myself an iPod nano. It’s a beautiful thing. Seriously. I love it. I spend about 3 hours per day “commuting,” if you include walking back and forth to the bus and train and actual time in the train and the bus. Now I can use my time wisely by listening to podcasts, teachings, worship music.
Today I came undone. I felt like someone took a seam ripper to my soul and went to town. I don’t know if all the kings horses and all the kings men put me together again, but I don’t feel quite as…a pile of rubble. There is just something that happens when you fall to your knees in worship. I felt as if I were at the feet of Jesus, with my head resting on His legs. When I sat down in my seat, I felt his heartbeat and smelled Him. How can one not come undone with in the presence of the King of Kings and the Lord of Lords?
I have to take some time, sit down, and write some things out. I have to write out the scriptures He’s given me, the words that I’ve received and start to make some sense out of this thing that I call my life. I use the term “my” lightly, because I am aware that my life is not mine. I signed my life away to God a long time ago.
Tonight at our small group, our conversation wandered to the martyrs and what their legacy and their last words were as they were martyred. When I think about the martyrs–ancient and recent–I think about people who are “all in” when it comes to their faith. When I die, I want that to be said of me. “The one thing that I know about Deneen is that she loved God with her whole heart, with her whole being, with absolutely everything that she had.”
Oh yeah. My blog was the “blog of the minute” for a minute on wordpress. Kinda weird, eh?