It’s funny how God works. Yesterday (and Monday, for that matter) were really tough days. Really, really tough. Today was a better day. I had a plan of attack. My sword: my mp3 player loaded with worship music. Whenever I felt edgy, I leaned on what I know to do…worship. Sure, I couldn’t belt out a tune. That would have been weird. But I did allow the words of the songs to permeate my being. The words of Linkin Park…they gave me the energy to keep going.
I received quite a bit of affirmation today from my bosses…thanking me and letting me know that they appreciate what I’m doing for the company. That was quite helpful.
I love how God layers confirmation upon confirmation. Whenever I enter a work environment, I tend to settle in quickly. I begin to picture myself there for year upon year. And then I get hopeless. Because God has made a promise to me…a promise that I will be a world changer, a history maker. God has given me a vision of preaching the gospel on every continent. So when I begin picturing myself in a 9-5 for the next 20 years, I get sad.
So, lest it appears that I digress…today I was listening to Erwin McManamus’ latest sermon on Soul Cravings about Destiny/Purpose–how each person was born with an innate craving for purpose, to do something amazing. Listening to him brought such a sense of peace to my soul. God is building something in me right now that I need built into me. And, though the lessons are not the most fun I’ve had in my life, knowing that God is behind everything makes it more bearable to me.
So, God is doing some stuff. And it’s good stuff, for the long run.