God is funny. I know that HIs ways are above my ways and His thoughts are above my thoughts. I get it. But today…yeah. I went to church, and I was completely uncomfortable. Just not in the rhythm of things, not in the groove. I suspect that because I am spending so much time atContinue reading “What more can I want?”
Category Archives: pastors
Christmas presents
I remember my first mission trip to Arizona. It was emotionally and physically the most difficult trip to date, of all of my trips. Somehow my zeal for missions was exponentially increased. Definitely a “God thing.” One day, during a devotional time, God gave me a scripture that I immediately internalized. “Anyone who loves hisContinue reading “Christmas presents”
Ouch
Yesterday, after church, we were talking with Pastor John and Beth. All of a sudden, we found ourselves talking about blogs. I mentioned that I had written that I want to be anywhere but NJ. Some more comments were made, and then Pastor John looked away and said, “You see. Deneen lives here, but sheContinue reading “Ouch”
October
I am suffering from acute ADD today, this week. I don’t know whether it is the allergies/cold, or the weather, or just life in general. Something about this week is not allowing me to concentrate. OK, I’ll stop blameshifting the responsibility. However, I do think that a little backstory wouldn’t hurt here. Back in theContinue reading “October”
The call to ministry
The heart of a pastor must remain guarded from sin while available to sinners. The other night that thought raced through my mind until I could contain it no longer. That led to this being written in my journal. It’s raw…very raw. I don’t know if I am truly cut out for ministry. The responsibilityContinue reading “The call to ministry”
Did that really happen?
Yesterday I spent the day completely nervous, wondering if, once again, my heart would be crushed into a thousand little piece and my vision scoffed. I walked out of my pastors’ house wanting to pinch myself to make sure that I hadn’t been dreaming. I can’t imagine life not where I am at the moment.Continue reading “Did that really happen?”
