Heart issues

Today I’ve been wrestling out some pretty deep heart issues. There are things that I’ve been carrying around for a long time. Yesterday I read an article that triggered some stuff that runs deep.
Some desires seems inconsistent with other desires. Some issues I thought weren’t “important” it turns out are of the utmost importance. Some things that I thought were important are just blips on a screen.
What am I saying? Paradigms are shifting. Fear of God is the beginning of wisdom, and to fear God properly, I’ve had to learn what faith is. I suppose that there has been a crisis of faith going on within me for the past few days. Noone I know has a terminal disease. Noone I know has died suddenly. I believe more today than I did yesterday that God is God, that He is sovereign, omnipotent, omnipresent. The crisis of which I speak has involved me wrestling out my desires, trying to make heads or tails of them. The resolution to which I’ve come is this: I can’t figure it out. I’m not God. And I have to be okay with that.
Am I? *chuckles* Being a control freak who wants everything planned out to the milisecond, not so much. Am I willing to learn to be okay with that? Yes.

One thought on “Heart issues

  1. Take heart my sister…”Control Freak” is curable, but it must have very high doses of “The Holy Spirit.” I called God, and He said you already have that prescription…..

    be blessed…


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