I find myself frustrated right now. I’ve walked through the valley of the shadow of death and back to find myself…the person that God has created me to be. I cannot give you a 2 page thesis or a 100 page dissertation on who that is. It is just something that I know in the deepest parts of my heart, of my being. During that time, I had to say no to people and activities that were appealing, even if their appeal was their availability.
If there is one thing that I want to stress to the world, to every person with whom I come into contact it is this: Find out what your passion is and GO FOR IT. If you are passionate about kids, become a teacher; teach children’s ministry; babysit. JUST DO IT. If you are passionate about art, GO FOR IT. If you don’t know what your it is, then do something. Try different things. Find out what floats your boat. Find out what makes you want to curl up into a little ball and cry. For me, kids absolutely freak me out in groups of more than two, unless I am related to said children. Then three is the number for me. Other than that, being in a room full of kids, being in front of a classroom full of kids literally makes me break out into a cold sweat, hives and makes my stomach queasy. I remember teaching children’s ministry. I’d drive home crying because I was a ball of nerves. I stepped down and back up more times that I can count. Finally, the last time I stepped down, I asked the children’s pastor to black ball from children’s ministry. I asked them to tell me no, no matter how much I begged and pleaded. Instead of depending on them, everytime I hear about a need in children’s ministry, I smile and say, NO. Knowing what you are not called to do is just as important as knowing what you are called to do.